[Maybe it's... just the sort of thing you just can't see, when you're that close, have that trust and loyalty in your heart. Can't say, not to yourself, definitely not to their face. Can't hear, because listening would mean giving it some space of considered truth.
If she's staying the only thing he can do then is his best. To not repeat past mistakes... to not make future ones. To... not be what Sou Hiyori was to him, to her, those who've placed parts of themselves in his hands. It's a terrifying prospect, but there's a kernel of this in his chest, already built up over time, at the core of it. He can do this, because there isn't really another choice he wouldn't hate himself further for.
...If only he had some idea of what he's doing. This whole thing started because he thought lives would be in danger if it didn't. They might still be.]
Guessing you'll be wanting an explanation...
[He doesn't know she's talked with Ranger about this... he knows she must have worked out it was a lie and probably some extrapolations from there, but he owes her the truth. And also... it'll explain why he'd want her to keep it secret herself, now that she knows.]
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Date: 2022-01-02 06:26 am (UTC)[Maybe it's... just the sort of thing you just can't see, when you're that close, have that trust and loyalty in your heart. Can't say, not to yourself, definitely not to their face. Can't hear, because listening would mean giving it some space of considered truth.
If she's staying the only thing he can do then is his best. To not repeat past mistakes... to not make future ones. To... not be what Sou Hiyori was to him, to her, those who've placed parts of themselves in his hands. It's a terrifying prospect, but there's a kernel of this in his chest, already built up over time, at the core of it. He can do this, because there isn't really another choice he wouldn't hate himself further for.
...If only he had some idea of what he's doing. This whole thing started because he thought lives would be in danger if it didn't. They might still be.]
Guessing you'll be wanting an explanation...
[He doesn't know she's talked with Ranger about this... he knows she must have worked out it was a lie and probably some extrapolations from there, but he owes her the truth. And also... it'll explain why he'd want her to keep it secret herself, now that she knows.]